Wednesday, 14 October 2015

Nostalgia


Well passed the mark of half a century, I am now over sixty-five years of age in my season of autumn among with the trodden lifeless fallen dry brown leaves blowing here, there and everywhere that were in bountiful beautiful different shades of green. The leaves were once strong and healthy latching onto branches withstanding the hurling winds come what may whichever direction it blows. I am now at a crossroad stance, but thankful still not yet six feet down under or at that place where the chimney or smoke stack never stop bellowing leaving minute remains of human dust around the scene voicing out to everyone who would listen that life had gone one round circle, once there was breathing existence, now only eternal death, the very end and no more. With one more step in that direction while waiting for the calling of final withering winter, it is the best time to reflect how one have walked the life’s rocky pathways with shoes and without, stumbling with cuts and bruises forcing oneself to march on but sometime encountering straight roads and avenues, too few to mention at that.

While I idly sat myself on the sofa in the living room of our small apartment in East Coast, Singapore, at times gazing out of the twenty-first floor panorama windows without any specific purpose or reason, my mind would wonder on things, events and at times day dreaming on once personal experiences or simply wishful thinking on what I perceive to be in order rearranging situations with new scripts for a non-event movie. Never really appreciating the view outside or the weather, funny how chapter of events can flip through within split second in the annals of my aging mind, one might even term it as mind games I believe. With the television switched on to break the monotonous feeling of emptiness while the BBC newscasters would elaborate on the breaking news of the day in all earnest, I shifted my attention to the Facebook write-ups on my internet laptop. Some were news, while others were funny and educational and a few were down right ugly and rude at times, all in all in the sprit and biography of entertainment I suppose.  

As I surf the Internet with my weathered fingers, I would somehow without much of a thought latch on to one of my favorite website, that being MEHSA. This is so as I can reminisce those bygone school days in the wealth of photographs chest and read about my old school plus buddies and recall those happy days once more again. Somehow over half a century melted in a flash and nice to be at that age again where the only worry was keeping up the studies and playing with my friends and maybe also be a pest to the girls. My 4B class photograph in 1960 showed we were just a shade under fifty pupils in total and one could identify the innocence that shined through and through, those were the carefree days. I took solace in knowing most of us made the grade. The studious guys mostly became medical doctors abroad and at home. Some excelled in businesses while others did well in our civil services, with a few dedicated themselves in the world of academia. Those who ventured into faraway lands also were successful in their own rights, now with grown up children and a few are even grandparents with a string of grand children. A reunion of all together again is most unlikely as some are scattered and way off in the States, Canada, British Isle, Australia and the likes of Hong Kong etc. with their own families and roots established there now. I still do keep my lines open with the friends that I can recall and glad to say that they all are fine except graying like myself however a few are still strong and active I’m pleased to notice. I’m sure my classmates Dr. Kyaw Thin (Leo Tan) and U Harn Yawnghwe (Pyee Pyee Thike) would agree that not only are we the crème de crème of Burma, but also arguably the pedigree of achievers in our own chosen fields, also turning out Ms. Aung San Su Kyi, the only Noble Laureate from our country till date. Quite an achievement don’t you think?

There is no denying that our school MEHS played a major role in shaping us up preparing for later stance in life, what a foresight, yes? Then, we did not think much about it, but we all shined through to be sure. The credit without a shadow of a doubt falls on the Principal Mrs. Logie (diseased) and her dedicated team of teachers who not only taught us the academia subjects but also the fundamentals how to have scruples and defining values in our lives. After all, the school motto was ‘ Not for school but life we do learn’ and the lamp still burns bright in all our hearts till this very day.  Judging from the recent chain of events I am really feeling gratified in my heart that at least our sons, daughters and grand children now has a chance of living in a democratic country once again and looking forward to co-exist in a peaceful and tranquil nation that we missed and hungered since 1962.

According to records, our school was founded in 1882 and the building as we know it was constructed in 1952 and the first stone was laid by our first President of Burma, His Excellency Sao Shwe Thike in the same year on February 20th. However, the school may be gone as we know it but today, because of our learned peers, we can dare dream of a long lasting peace in an establishment of a democratic nation once again, soon I hope.




Wednesday, 23 September 2015

Homeward Bound From The West

Homeward bound on return voyages from the western countries were a joyous affair to be sure. After being away from your beloved own land, a return was something all looked forward to without exception. This was especially so after rounding the Cape of Good Hope, some might term it as a calling. Even though over five and a half thousand nautical miles still yet to steam, at lest the ship was in the same ocean/water as Rangoon. All onboard knows this as the seas were always rough in spring, summer, autumn or winter: this is where the waters of Atlantic and Indian Oceans meet and our ship would roll twenty to thirty degrees from side to side and the waves outside were not a sight to behold, not mentioning the sharks in their wolf packs looking for easy meals.  Still, all bit the bullets and prayed for calmer waters that should arrive in a few days. Our dining experiences rounding the Cape were never eaten in style either, the tablecloths maybe white but they were purposely wetted and the tables were rimmed to guard our plates and cutleries remained on the tables that were battened down together with chairs we sat on to the deck. Sounds of creaking from don’t know where, doors slamming, pots and pans clanking and all sort of noises fill the ship while rounding. A stereophonic experience to be sure.

This was the time to switch on the saloon’s radio to listen to hi-fi transmission pop songs on FM (frequency modulated) from Cape Town Springbok Radio while eating and also search for our native BBS (Burma Broadcasting Service) on high frequency when the sun was no more and the weather was kind enough.  Even though we still may have been eighteen days away from our homeport, it was always nice to hear the faint on and off sounds of hsaing waing (Burmese traditional symphony) before the daily 2000 hours news broadcast in the evenings. Heads would be pressed together to the radio and the slight faint broadcast of BBS would put an anxious smile to our faces no matter the weather outside. No heads or tails were able to be made good on our ears: no matter, but we at least could hear and sense home was only in days now. After dinner periods when all officers left the saloon, it was the turn of the stewards who would do likewise and pass the news through out their aft quarters that home was within reach and the ship had passed midnight hour. Hallelujah!

This first faint sound of home on the radio would gel our own thoughts of our last port of call for the voyage and envisage what we would do on arrival there. From then on discussions would be tweeted and munched amongst ourselves on matters relating to leave, girlfriends, marriage, childbirth, house and a million other things playing on our minds. We felt that high rolling waves and strong cold winds from the east and west, all at the same time at the Cape was a small price to be paid, but felt good the ship was at last making for Rangoon. With an average speed of twelve knots per hour, another week would pass before passing Reunion Island, our last landfall before home port with only a glance of the said island from miles away. The dreaded west bound voyages were not liked by most as sea time of twenty-four days at a stretch subject to one day bunkering port on route was too long and European ports were expensive, not to mention the people, culture and the food. A few old seadogs do savor these long voyages view force saving of money and drawing large sums at home port was a delight to them.

The seas were calmer and no more horses on the surfaces of the water with the ship steaming calmly homeward bound. Days and nights were warmer meaning the rig of the day was white again coupled with more work and attention to our uniforms. We were posed questions abound whether the sea passages were boring. To the contrary, life at sea was full with respective responsible watches to muster and maintenance to be carried out, at times not enough hours remaining for oneself. Another week and a half passes by till abeam of Sri Lanka and crossing the Equator that called for a celebration. During my first voyage to the west, I had to ring the anchoring bell at the bow being the youngest onboard to let know King Neptune that our ship crossed the Equator. Eight bells I strike at midnight and the crew arranged an U Shwe Yoe dance troupe (Burmese traditional Chaplinesque comedy dance), that signaled for contribution of beer cans from Officers and Engineers plus also a party of our own to drink away the hot humid night with songs and dance.

By this time, the transmission from the BBS was clearer on the medium wave, however the novelty had worn off. We all still listen to the radio during meal times but not as eager as previously. Rangoon was about four days away once passing Sri Lanka, a stone throw away in seamen terms and other important things were on our young minds. We still had to make decisions on items we were going to include in our baggage and things we were willing to leave in our cabins. Goods in the baggage were prone to Custom duties depending on the examination officer and a few things in our cabins may over ride Custom duties, however also prone to ‘gifts’ to them or be seized at its worst. We would purchase a few items such as ladies Tricel sweaters and cosmetics from London for resale in Rangoon. The profit margins were not bad but unable compare to margins on the East run to Singapore, Hong Kong and Japan. The jokes onboard were shortage of batteries for our calculators due to insistence calculations on possible money to be made. Those were the days.

Usually we would arrive at Rangoon Pilot Station in the evenings for entry into the river early next morning in time for the flood tide at monkey point to free our draft of 27 feet 9 inches from the muddy bottom. The colour of the water here was chocolaty which was reassuring, however thinking of the ‘rats’ made us want to sail out again as the encounters were rather taxing while maintaining our plastic smiles at best. Rats were the names we gave to the rummaging Custom Officials boarding our ships in the river before berthing similarly to that animal that would seek and look at every small cracks and take whatever was on hand. Their uniforms were baggy khaki shorts always able absorb a few cartons of cigarettes or whisky bottles without changing its shape. I suppose it was a game of cat and mouse in the end. Should one does not leave anything in our something to hide. It does leave a distasteful pungent taste in our mouths while trying to maintain our cool. The horrid game continued …..

After safe arrival at home port, our jobs were not an end: the welcoming sea gulls and the sight of small wooden fishing boats were only flash in the pan. We still needed for the items to be landed and be sold. With the money obtained, buy back U$ Dollars and Pound Sterling from the black market in preparation for the next trip likely expenses, in addition to personal matters: all to be sorted out within a total ten days port stay. This type of commercial downturn for the general public does not happen anywhere else, even India. Thinking back, I have no alternative but to blame it squarely on our poor economic conditions led by bad stewardship of the authorities. Unknowingly we were slowly being turned into sailors cum traders, so once again we were back to square one of the beginning of shipping.

It seems history repeating itself.                   

QED


Saturday, 1 August 2015

Life's Packagings

A dictionary short definition of packaging is material(s) used to wrap or protect goods, while it can also mean presentation of a person or things in an advantageous way. There are a few more meanings direct and some indirect but I am sure you already gasped its meaning, thus I will leave it at that. To me packaging is a blessing in disguise to be sure, but it is not all glory and one should view at it somewhat like Sherlock Holmes with a rather large magnifying glass accompanied with sensible thoughts. All of life’s packaging needs to be viewed with some degree of caution and not be taken in by their presentation or cloaks. That reminded me of an instance many moons ago in Bussan town, where two young shapely sexy girls clasped in their flashy flimsy bikinis dancing away merrily to the pop songs of the day, blaring from speakers in their cubicles beckoning drivers to utilize their supermarket car-park in the middle of full winter. This exercise goes to show what this world is coming into to ensure more catchment to their market. I’m sure the young beauties felt the freezing cold winds as I did in my thick overcoat and woollies, no doubt. However, their smiles never left their faces even though they may have felt otherwise. I also have heard of professional weepers in the deserts of Rajasthan, India, where their services can be got for a fee to weep and cry for the dearly departed while laying their history between sobs setting the mood of the occasion. Strange! These types of plastic imitations are too various to mention so shall we mum it as that?

I suppose these packaging in our everyday lives are slowly unknowingly swallowing and becoming part of us without a flicker of a thought. Should we step on the brakes for a moment and contemplate, one should dissect this and consider whether this ‘packaging’ are really a good thing or not so for us, finding our bearing as it were. While appreciating ‘packaging’ will always be part of our existence in one form or another, we should identify what should or should not be packaged and I am a strong advocate of this. I ask myself where would truth be, should we sugar coat it all or wrap it in beautiful coloured papers. A few important agendas in life needs to be the truth, nothing but the truth and not be packaged attractively, pure and simple to enable us gauge its impact upon us which would be for long term while changing or amending it might well be, but it does disrupt you, not even considering the finances and in some cases, one self esteem poses to be on the line. I personally find the wrappings are more rampant and rising in developed lands of Americas, Europe, The East and where not. Yes/No? Agree?

I regret to see more of our mankind are packaging most things with an alarming frequency and becoming more selfish in the process, must be the changing values of our times. I suppose this is the price we pay to be successful. However, the core essential must prevail in the long run to identify reality and the naked truth. This reminded of my wife for more than forty years comment saying             “ never judge a book by its cover ”. While we tend to upkeep our best form at the forefront, the wrappings must be unveiled and torn open in the end to reveal its true inner-self. There is an old joke going around where the girls of today will woo in their and hunt with packaging of some sort to secure their illusive five ‘C’, namely cash, credit card, condominium, career and car from the drooling unsuspecting guys. Should their aims be unfulfilled, short changed or falling short - bye bye & good riddance!  While not all girls are like that, there is some truth in the joke. All that glitters are not gold cuts both ways. However, it seems to be more of a regularity than the exception from the days of yonder up till this very moment to be sure, quod erat demonstrandum (Q.E.D.)

While we cannot escape these ‘packaging’ in what ever we do or where ever we go forth, the person themselves has the responsibility to identify this and discard what is irrelevant. Difficult I do agree, but regretfully the only way, sorry….. Saying is easy while in practice is a different cattle of fish. With so much artificial facades, padded bras, false eyelashes, corsets, added flavorings and genetic modified (GM) foods, not to mention plastic smiles, false comradeships, relationships, love, marriage and what not, there comes a time where we alone can only take stock of things and get the reins back on.

We at times enjoy the packaging of life to soothe us when we are down which sadly is becoming more of an everyday event that I regretfully have to admit. Some juveniles and a few grown ups even venture out further to drugs and stimulus’s to get that kick of a high and lost touch with reality. A sincere shame don’t you think?  We get so used to this presentation of an advantageous ways that we tend to loose track of the reality of life. In this regard I feel animals are more realistic and true to nature than us humans by a wide margin. They are honest to themselves and do not hold packaging to high esteem as we do.

Thus, we need not to loose touch with reality and seek out the truth in a manner that meant the most to us, and not put the blame on to others. Some turn to religion and meditation while others leave it to life’s luck. Whatever, the point I’m soliciting is that, we will have to unwrap the outer layer at one stage or the other to seek the inner truth. Face we must and tackle the resultant head on, good or bad. We should be able to differentiate what truth we require and what others we able coexist with artificially. This is the fact of life and the balance is solely in the hands of each individual.

In conclusion as we shall have to face reality in our life, as such may I suggest that you undo or unwrap what is important or valuable to one self and recognize it for what it is and accept or discard according to your discretion. No two ways about it.

Good luck!


Saturday, 20 June 2015

Grandfather Wall Clock

In the stillness of a small town under the name of Kalaw, a hill station 1320 meters above sea level in the Taunggyi District, Western Shan State of Myanmar, the pace of life trickles at a snail’s walk compared to the other bustling cities such as Mandalay and Yangon. This hill station was set up during the British Raj era, for their tribe to escape the sweltering and daunting heat of the Burmese (Myanmar) plains. The temperature there was cool and comfortable, around 23 degrees Centigrade on average, while the temperature in the plains could sour up to 39/40 degrees, depending on the season with more than 80% humidity, was not too nice or comfortable I’m afraid. The Honorable Major Richard Radcliffe (better known as RR by his counterparts) from the 37th Welsh Guards, was posted to Yangon as part of a contingent of the British management hierarchy just before the Second World War in 1937.  Similarly to some of his matrimony mates, he brought along Marjorie, his beloved better half, eight years his junior, to keep at bay the infamous dreaded British weather. She being a Scottish lass from Stirling quickly agreed to her husband proposal and joined him in Rangoon looking forward to a life of warm tropical bliss, while he took up his post in the Secretariat under the auspices of Colonel Tomlinson Cartwright.  

Soon after Marjorie Radcliffe arrival at Rangoon, she noticed that the weather was too hot, stuffy, humid and at the same time totally did not agree with her. To journey back by steamer alone would have meant seasickness yet again and more than 30 days at sea, which she did not fancy in the least: To fly back in her family way condition was not an option either. After much deliberation with her husband, he purchased a small chalet in Kalaw and followed the tribe as it were. The chalet was on a hilltop overlooking the small town with an adequate garden and pine trees all around and yet still walking distance to the railway station which was similar to her native Scotland under the tropical circumstances. Marjorie fell in love with the place and anchored there mostly, venturing to Rangoon when called for only from October to January when the weather there was cooler.

Of all the household utensils Major Radcliffe shipped out from Rangoon included a grandfather wall clock bought from Rowe & Company there. It was about three feet long and twelve inches in width, with a pine housing that chimes on every hour. They hung it onto the sitting room wall near the fireplace and there it stayed majestically till their last day. She was very much at home there with her society of British expatriates while RR was busy in Rangoon. He did journey there at every opportunity and she bored him three beautiful children. The elder girls were lovingly nicknamed Pudding and Dessert, and the latest addition a bonny boy was called Crayon as he radiated sunshine to their clan. When Burma gained independence on 4th January, 1948, their days were numbered and in February 1949, the Major made the following statement to their dutiful butler U Pu and his wife Daw Hla, their faithful maid.

“Since Burma gained independence, we have been ordered back to the United Kingdom and as such shall be leaving Kalaw for good next week. As a token of our gratitude and appreciation, please accept our wall clock as a gift to remind of us.”

U Pu replied, “Thank you Major, the wall clock shall have a place of prominence in our humble house and may we also wish all the best to you and your family and for sure shall always remain in our hearts.”

The Radcliffe’s sold all their furnishings at a discount to the locals and gave away what they could not dispose off and boarded the train back to Rangoon with bare essentials, as they would be starting afresh back home. Their departure was timed so that they need spend only a day or two at the most in Rangoon, before boarding on their final voyage to Tilbury by Bibby Line’s s.s. Warwickshire with the three children in tow, thus one chapter came to a sad close.

U Pu passed away in 1953 at the age of 62 due to a bout of tuberculosis and his daughter Daw Saw May also left this world in 1995 at the age of 74 due to heart complications. However, her daughter Daw Mya Mya, age 51 is still well, alive,  kicking and living with her only son San Pe, age 23 in the northern outskirt of Kalaw, a stone throw away from route 54 leading to another small town of Yin Mar Pin. Burmese names do not have or follow surnames, thus rather difficult and can be confusing at times. Their small wooden structure was two stories with the shrine room on the top floor. There, the mother, son and his wife Hla Hla together with their 7 months old daughter lives a simple uncomplicated life. The old grandfather wall clock was hung in the top floor shrine room left wall, a place of respect and prominence. The Smiths Enfield clock’s chime tubes were of brass, the pendulum of stainless steel and brass, the mechanism were hard to distinguish whether of brass, copper or steel for a layman, while the winding key was made of steel. Not too far from their small house there exist three small distinct villages, Pa Oo, a tribe of the region, Nepali and Gurkha, reminisce of the once British Army soldiers and rail workers who settled down there for good and a Shan village. All coexisted peacefully and tended to their crops, lands and went about minding their own businesses. In the stillness of the night and early morning, its resonance chimes can clearly be made out through the valley and surrounding hill villages when it strikes each hour, number of chimes signifying the hour concerned. The strikes of the chimes were considered as gospel by the region and all chores carried out accordingly. San Pe would wind the clock weekly, every Tuesday and accuracy of time was checked by his mother with the announcement of the hour from their transistor radio, and the clock corrected may be weekly due to its excellent time keeping.


The nearby monastery Head Monk is risen at four every morning by the grandfather wall clock chimes and the serious business of running a monastery begin, so as the boiled beans seller who cooks her delicacy to sell in the market commences too. The sound of the chimes travels to the surrounding villages around the hilltops, and they also start their daily rituals with that. The chimes of the wall clock are not loud but its low distinct resonance sound seems to have reached the nearby villages in the quiet stillness of the countryside. San Pe is  aware the grandfather wall clock is a family heirloom but does not know the extent of its full history. It’s been in his family for over sixty years and still walking as the Jonnie Walker Whisky advertisements. No repairs had been made as far as he is aware of, maybe service its mechanics every ten years or so at the town’s clock and watch shop on Merchant Street. San Pe works as a clerk in Ah-Wan’s produce agency house dealing in fresh garlic and all sort of rice including black sticky rice. There has been many a time when he was complimented by the customers for the chimes the wall clock resonances from their house. All walk of life around the house seems to rely on the chimes of the grandfather wall clock for their times which made him rather proud as though he is the town’s time keeper. The market at Kalaw is every five days and the coming and goings of town folks in their warm clothing and woolies amidst the puffing from their noses and mouths are truly a heartwarming sight. The morning scenes were colourful as the vegetables, souvenirs and knick-knacks they sell painted a breath taking sight to be sure. At times he would daydream and wanted to see and hear in person the Big Ben’s bell chimes in the Palaces of Westminster at London, some commented that the chimes were similar to that of their grandfather wall clock.

Saturday, 6 June 2015

LIFE


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We journey through avenues of living valued with many titles,
Some were negative, while others more on a positive note.
Sensing in awe accordance to the ups and downs of nature’s cycles,
To suit us best in all situations enabling us to cope.

Forgive and forget much are penned in scriptures and Dhmma summons us,
For their misdeeds showered onto our fragile souls.
Easier said than done to be sure, but endure we all must,
To secure that peace inside us before we grow too old.

 Sail and march to this drumbeat of righteousness,
Into deep valleys and oceans of our simple minds.
With that spring frolic into autumn and winter whilst trying our best,
Six feet down under and crossed that bridge, still we yet to find.

A few lucky souls do unlock the wonders of life,
What else must we muster to win this fight?

Friday, 24 April 2015

Soul Of The Rains

The roads were nearly knee deep with dirty brown water that snail down from higher ground and joined the overflow outdated drainage system built for the nineteenth century. For that moment in time, our city’s streets were a never-ending sea of rushing, roaring water with islands of stopped vehicles in the middle of the roads, with traffic lights taking a ‘pause café’ due to short circuits. For us, the insistent rains were a normal state of affairs in the mist of monsoon, which might seem a little out of place to most westerners comparing to their usual standards.


In Yangon (Rangoon), the overflowing drainage systems are a part of everyday life in the rainy season that is repeated year after year even though the municipal would clean them in the dry season, to prepare for the approaching rains months ahead. It is clearly evident that their measures were insufficient or something wrong somewhere to be sure: whatever, the scenes were repeated yearly as far as I can remember, nothing new really. We Myanmar are very forgiving people, must be the Buddhist religion, with a few mumbles and quiet grunts, we would go about our usual businesses at the end of the day, thus a never ending cycle repeating itself.

As I stepped down from the bus at downtown 52nd Street stop, my right leg plunged into a tepid liquid, actually it was neither cold nor warm, just wet, maybe a wee bit on the cold side at times, followed by my other leg. The colour of the overflow sea of rain reminded me of my coffee that I had that morning prepared by my loving wife, sweet condensed milk with coffee and a spoonful of sugar, just to add that punch of extra sweetness. With my tiffin box in my right hand and upholding an umbrella in my left, I navigated the pavements to my workplace, which was still a good another half hour walk. The rubber slippers on my feet felt quite secure and I could not sense any mud underneath which was a blessing as it made my walking reasonably more secure. Mary bought me the rubber flip flops last year so that my normal leather slippers need not be worn during the monsoon and would last longer, specifically no further need to face the challenges of our monsoon downpour.

At least the buses are still working, after all they were purchased as second hand or as reconditioned from Japan, Korea and China and no telling how robust and sturdy they all are, we Myanmar importers like cheap, cheap things, profits for the rich few are name of the game. I am quite sure the weather there is somewhat unlike our monsoon and may not be built to withstand such punishment. Out of the whole lot, the buses from China are the worst with low power, slower, frequently breaking down and not so well constructed as their contemporaries.  The tires diameters are all above one meter, thus negotiating our monsoon seas are not much of a problem with their engines higher than the water levels. I live in Thaketa, a township with nineteen wards and about half a million of us are located in that eastern part of Yangon where working classes like my goodself live and cocoon there. Without the buses, I’m sure Yangon will come to a stand still. There is the alternative Yangon Circular Railway, however afraid it does not touch our satellite town in the east, which would have been nice as it is the cheapest form of transport around. In our ward, being the furthest from Yangon, our house or more correctly dwelling was built on stilts of hardwood poles, similar to those from the deep countryside to overcome and counter such an occurrence. The roads are still dirt tracks and far from being tarred: afraid we are not in the VIP list. Some households do own a laung hlay (narrow wooden boat), which they use for commuting but not too many around.

The southwest monsoon graces its yearly entrée by May or June with dances of thunder, lighting bolts and high winds till October and the five/six months are full of contradictions. At times it may pour down with such force that roofs, trees, telegraph poles and what not are totally displaced or destroyed. Sometimes the rains would continuously drag for days on end or maybe weeks without a break. Should the Rain Gods be kind, it does give a few hours recess during the day. One thing is for sure though, it does not only rains but it pours creating temporary lakes, rivers, streams and seas.

Our monsoon rains are a blessing if we know how to appreciate it. Take for instance the young couple I saw on my slow wet slog to work; he would balance his umbrella in one hand while shouldering his beloved with the other, sharing it while she snuggled close to him, holding her drenched cane basket with tiffin box and folded automatic umbrella in one hand. What a wonderful sight and I’m sure this frame would not be repeated after bearing a few children by her. I also would witness children playing in the rain on their way to school while others have a dip as though it was the sea.  Some just sat outside their apartments watching the going on unfolding in front of them.  Each time I have a meal with my family, I quietly thank the farmers and peasants for the rice we were eating and all this would not have been possible if not for the monsoon rains. Heavens opening up is really a Godsend, a ritual we go through every year and at least we do not need the long and heavy overcoats. City dwellers may curse but in fact we must thank the Rain God, for he is lending us a helping hand for our daily meals, we city folks sure can be complacent at times, are we not?

My house is of a wooden structure and the roof is of galvanized wrought iron sheets. All five of us; I, my wife’s mum and dad, Mary and our pride and joy little Ma Pyone (Miss Smile) three years old resides. Mary’s dad looks after the four ducks, who all enjoy a field day quacking in the rains and shelter beneath our house when they so desires. Her mum and Mary has a small stall selling puns, sweets, cheroots, cigarettes and a few knick knacks in front which pays for our kitchen needs and the replenishments of their rickety stall.  The hatched duck eggs does fetch a fair price in the market and my salary runs the household. During the weekends, I would hold my mug of coffee in the mornings and gaze out onto our dirt street filled with rainwater while the peddlers and passer bys negotiate the temporary stream. Inside our house may be dry but with over 80% humidity, all one touches is a bit damp while I listen to the symphony being played by the heavens above on my galvanized roof. I often wonder do the monks with their shaven heads without umbrellas or raincoats get pneumonia collecting elms in wet robes and bare feet daily  ………….


Friday, 20 March 2015

Thingyan (Myanmar New Year). My Perspective.

Title  : Thingyan (Myanmar New Year). My Perspective.
Style :  Short Essay

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Our Golden Land as some would author, has been shrouded by a wall of teak for nearly half a century and just reopened its doors. As such the tourists and visitors alike, young and old in their doves are flocking to discover one of the last virgin tropical paradises in this world. Every country or land has its auspicious day(s), and Myanmar (Burma) is no exception to the rule. Even though Myanmar is a multi-religious country, 90% of its over 54 million population practices Theravada Buddhism.

The origination of Thingyan can be traced back to ancient India. Born out of Hindu myth, when King Sarka of Devas beheaded as agreed to the looser King Arsi of the Brahmas after a battle and replaced it with a head of an elephant, later to be known as Ganesha. It was said that if King Arsi's severed head was thrown into the sea, it would dry up, if left on land, the earth would be scorched, and if thrown into the air, it would turn in flames, thus it was decided the head be carried by a princess devi and change turn yearly. From it, the ritual of changing yearly was formalized and with time the washing away the old year ceremony was born.

Thingyan in fact is a Burmese Buddhist holiday by any means and the dates calculated by following the traditional Burmese lunisolar calendar. However, today like many other things, it is followed and fixed according to Gregorian calendar from April 13th to 16th or 17th depending leap year or otherwise:  as such Thingyan or Myanmar New Year is an important date and it’s festival second to none in our year’s calendar. One would not be wrong to say that this is the time for the younger generation to let their hair down as the saying goes. It also is the only gazetted public holiday where all major offices and outlets are closed for a total of 10 days continuous spread in the heat of full bloom summer.

The eve of Thingyan day is known as A-Kyo-Nai, followed by A-Kya-Nai, A-Kyat-Nai, thence by Knit-San-Ta-Yet-Nai, meaning the new-year day itself. In Myanmar calendar, this important festival falls in the first month of Ta-Gu (April). Here, all education establishments from junior to higher are closed for the summer holidays and thus the children would have a field day and be out in force on the roads. Most toddlers up to middle school children plays water around their houses or in their areas utilizing bowls, cups, water hoses or make shift water pumps avoiding monks, passerby in religious clad attires and uniformed personnel. They all feel accomplished should the sprays be successful and the other person get wet or drenched. Budding young teenagers, mostly girls to young ladies join in the festive fun by being a paying member of a pandal or marquee, especially built on slits of wood or bamboo for the occasion beside the roads, spraying water jets from a commanding position with small plastic pipes pressurized via portable water pumps from near by pond, lake or river. In Yangon (Rangoon), it is rather prevalent around the Royal and Inya lakes. Chocker block cars, vans, trucks and what not, filled with people of all ages laughing and singing, queuing for hours on end awaiting their turn to be sprayed by the beauties on the pandals while passing all sort of remarks from their vehicles. Some were nice, complementary, confronting, bad, sarcastic proposals and also a few down right rude sentences. The fair ladies could thrash back or just maintain their cool: this being Thingyan and all comments are relaxed and permitted except down right dirty or otherwise swearing words. The trick here is to keep out of the kitchen if you cannot stand the heat.

I would be the first to admit that this type of Thingyan celebrations are somewhat well off the bull’s eye, but there you are, no holding back the winds of change through the ages: Same sadly also can be witnessed in Bangkok, and in some cities through out South East Asian Buddhist countries. Some would don on loud clothes or minimum wears that does not leave much to immagination, mascara their faces and dye their hair with strange styles to attract attention, not too a pretty sight in my opinion. Traditionally, water was put in a silver bowl and sprinkled with the sprigs of Tha-Pyay (Jambul), quaint and rather touching. Fear not, all is not lost, this scene can still be observed in the rural provinces. Take the Rakhine (Arakkan) State capital city of Sittwe (Akyab) for instance, water is stored in a laung-hlay (traditional slim boat) on table in front of a pandal, and people queue and take turn to sprinkle the water from it gently onto the fair maidens standing behind the boat and they would return the compliments, a far cry from the cities, nice though. During this period streets would form teams offering moak-lone-yae-paw, that is glutinous rice balls with bits of jaggery inside are thrown in boiling water and when it resurfaces, taken out and served with a garnish of coconut shavings on banana leaves to all passerby without discrimination as a charity deed. Yummy !

When the sun is no more, the mood swings to songs and dances, stage shows, traditional and rock concerts, entertainments galore, free of course and stalls catering all things consumable by mouth and what not, merrymaking in general. At every street and quarters, something exciting would be happening for the whole family to enjoy. Pagodas would be well lighted, attended and offerings of candles and incense sticks to Buddha made too. A well deserved rest before the next day of throwing and spraying water yet again. Some years, there would be a shower during the Thingyan period and the Padauk (Pterocarpus) flowers would blossom in full glory on the trees, proudly displaying its yellowish gold colour and sweet smelling petals, a wonderful sight to be sure. Soon maidens would be wearing onto their hair and offerings made to Buddha at shrines and pagodas also.

Not forgetting our elders and religious minded folks, they would be taking their eight precepts for the whole period and on new year day itself, would be washing granddads and grandmas hair plus trimming their nails, sharing good merits to the poor in their quarters, magnificent deeds indeed. The younger generation would also visit the old timers and pay obeisance to them, truly heart-warming touches. Some also would make a journey to large lakes, rivers and streams to release fishes, as a gesture of saving lives: young boys would enter monkhood for a short period of time and be immersed in the teachings of Buddha called Dhamma. This ritual is somewhat also akin to coming of age in some areas. All in all, a good fun time indeed.

Me? I’d be wearing something light and loose with my cotton longyi (Burmese bottom half attire), walk to the top of our lane and find a shady spot and sit myself down by the kerb with a small cane fan in hand, just soaking in the wonderful spectacle unfolding in front of my eyes and grinning from side to side.


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By/- Myo Thant





Saturday, 24 January 2015

Soldiering On


LEGEND:

CHAPTER ONE      :  SPREADING HIS WINGS
CHAPTER TWO     :  TASTE FOR REALITY
CHAPTER THREE :  JOINING THE FIRM
CHAPTER FOUR    :  PLOWING THE EARTH
CHAPTER FIVE      :  IDENFYING LOVE
CHAPTER SIX         : THE END GAME?


CHAPTER ONE : SPREADING HIS WINGS
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Donovan Doolittle raised his Blue-Black duffel coat hood to get some sort of a reprieve from the cold and wet sleet of the freezing February evening, while he hurriedly brisk walked from Ealing Broadway Underground Station to his bedsit on Saint Leonard Road. The duffel coat was 70% Pure New Wool and 30% Terylene and as advertised; the wet sleet did not stick onto his coat. He bought the duffel coat from the C & A Store on Oxford Street when they had a storewide sale last autumn.  It was 30% off the usual price and furthermore much, much cheaper than 100% Pure New Wool coats. Besides, this duffel coat would have to do, as he could not lay all his eggs in one basket. The walk to his bedsit was about twelve minutes and he was pleased his duffel coat kept the chilling cold wind at bay and reasonably warm enough for what the English winter weather could throw at him. He much preferred the Pure New Wool overcoats from Bond Street stores, however, he has not reached the threshold that deserve such status in his short career as yet. Till then, the evergreen duffel coat must do; it’s fashion had been going strong for a few centuries and a few more years would do no harm to Donovan Doolittle.

Telly dinner was two ham and eggs sandwiches with a hot cup soup plus an all must have cup of tea. This would have to do till his pay packet grew a bit fatter. He was no chef but could cook or prepare something cheap and fast, thus saving on utility bills also. Donovan slotted two 25 pence coins into the gas meter machine by the door and the gas fire was reassuring and warm, glowing blue and red till his bedtime. As he sat on his sole corduroy threadbare easy chair engrossed on the wildlife documentary aired by BBC (British Broadcasting Corporation) in his bedsit; the weather outside trashed and bare branches snapped from the ever-increasing gale winds. The sight from his second floor only window onto the backyard was not too pleasant. He often wondered why he decided to work in London, as warm and comfortable living does exist in the bosom of his parents house in Guildford, Surrey, where washing, cooking, hoovering and all that household chores are fully taken care of. After thinking deeply, he does realize that it was about time he spread his wings on his own and the present situation was just an inconvenience he needed to overcome, and no use crying over it, but he still missed his mum and dad and the convenience of home.

Working for The Home Office (HO) at Apollo House, Whitgift House on Wellesley Road, Croydon, has been acceptable for him. It was not that demanding, however not a piece of cake either. Donovan Doolittle applied and was invited to join a Trainee Executives programme; his was under Mr. Mukajee, his Section Head. A second generation British with ties from Kenya. The learning curve was interesting but mostly digging history through volumes of files after files on their computer software. Donovan wondered what his file would be like. It would be nice to take a peek though, surely interesting? His days were mostly in front of a computer screen and preparing a concise report for Mr. Mukajee on the computer also. Today, all are striving for a paperless society, making the world a better place he supposed. Mrs. Twaddell, the Clerical Officer, has been there for over twenty years and her hair was never out of place. As far as he could deduct, she has no grey hairs, must be her weekly stint under an electric hood of a beauty saloon he deduced. The five feet two rounded lady was his friend, colleague, mentor at times and was happy she being there for him. She was married with three children and very much family orientated. They would laugh at each other jokes and he has been to her house in Barnes where he would enjoy a dinner or two there. Donovan would brew her teas and she in return would dish out the tea biscuits, one or two at a time, but no more.

Mrs. Twaddell would say, “ Duckie, no need to ensure the report is grammatically correct, just do in point form, short, understandable and be precise. This way, Mr. Mukajee will be able to make a quick and correct decision. That’s the important thing. ”

“ Thank you Mrs. Twaddell, you sure are a gem. This way, my reports would not take too long and kinder on my brain also. ” So said Donovan Doolittle and he was happy, pleased and very much at home with his crowd.

There were four people in his section and all got on like a dream. Helping each other was no chore and all looked out for each other in and outside work. They would also enjoy a drink or two at the Red Lion; round the corner from the office before turning for home. Donovan Doolittle was one of two Degree holders that joined the service. He secured his Bachelor of Arts Degree reading Linguistics and Languages at Sacred Heart College, Oxford. Since his Oxford days, he spoke and wrote five languages fluently; namely English, French, Arabic, Mandarin and Burmese. He just loves languages and fascinated with the cultures different lands have to offer. He made friends easily and can be at home in any surroundings, in other words, Donovan Doolittle fits in like hand in glove wherever he was. It’s been more than a year working with his fellow colleagues and he looked forward to going to office every working day. The team functions well and he was at peace and content with the atmosphere.

After the monthly pay packets were distributed on the last Friday of the month, Donovan Doolittle felt rich and from that moment on, he’ll be poorer day by day. As he gave serious thoughts how much he should credit into his debt ridden current account, his deep mindfulness was shattered rudely by the heavily Indian accent of his boss, Mr. Mokajee “ Dolittle, step into my office around four in the afternoon, that’s a good chap. ” After his short burst, he disappeared back into his room; in his only pin stripped suit badly in need of a replacement, due to the sheen on both his jacket and trousers. He wondered what it could be, he was sure it was not a promotion, nor could it be his work, as all his tasks were submitted timely without any errors. Furthermore, he was never late for work or a lazy bone; nor his dress code was unbecoming, in the end he said to himself that he would soon know by afternoon. The team did much brainstorming for him but did not come up with an answer. A total mystery it seemed.

At four in the afternoon, Donovan Doolittle knocked on the old oak door of Mr. Mukajee and hoped for the best on what he would receive.

Mokajee replied from inside, “ Come in ” and when he saw Donovan Doolittle blank and questionable face, he smiled and said, “ Close the door and sit    down. ”
Donovan Doolittle sat down on the right side of the two wooden chairs in front of Mr. Mokajee’s table and placed his hands on his thighs, making sure his hands were not on the table. Anxiously he waited for the news Mr. Mokajee has to dish out and would tackle accordingly.

Mr.Mokajee came straight to the point. He said, “ I’ve been instructed to inform you that with the beginning of first working day next month; you Donavan Doolittle is to report to our associate office in Birmingham. Today being Friday, you should have ample time to sort your affairs here and report to Mr. McKinney at our office there. As you well know Birmingham is the second largest city after London in our United Kingdom with a population with over a million souls there, therefore you will not feel too lonely. May I suggest you tender your farewells to the section this afternoon and you may call it a day at the close of business hours. I don’t know how your landlord will take it, as he would need at least seven days notice, but I am confident that you shall be able to negotiate this. ”

He continued “ I have no qualms about your work here and maybe they want you to have a full and varied training before you manage your own station or section. Please claim all your traveling and daily expenses at Birmingham and do have a pleasant trip. Even though I do not know Mr. McKinney, please convey my best and I shall not be writing a letter or email to him about your progress here as this directive came from above and no doing of mine. ”

The Indian, or more correctly the British; shook Donovan Doolittle right hand and wished him all the best and as a last statement said, “ Do shut the door after you leave. ”

Donavan Doolittle shutting Mr. Mokajee’s door and could sense that all eyes were upon him. He walked back to his section and told them about his transfer and thanked all for their support, especially to Mrs. Twaddell. She said “ Duckie, do call us from Birmingham when you have settled in and remember we are always here for you. After all, you are family. ”

All agreed in unison and in short, one episode of his working life came to an end of a Chapter. That Friday, he did not join the usual ritual for the group drinks at the Bull’s Head, but proceeded back to his bedsit to pack his rather few meager belongings. There was not much to pack; a British Home Store Blue-Black two-piece Wool and Terylene suit, a dark Blazer, three trousers, two sweaters, five shirts, two pair of Levis jeans and a few pair of socks and under garments plus three ties. His wardrobe fitted quaintly into his old Black suitcase with room to spare, not withstanding his backpack with all his important documents, not that he had many. After that, me made out a week rent by cheque as he did not want to part with his cash, which he received freshly a few hours ago. Then Donovan rushed down to the ground floor and rang the front door bell. As the door opened he said “ Mrs. Walinski, good evening to you. Here is my rental cheque for next week and please also treat it as my week’s notice as I’ve been instructed this afternoon to be transferred to Birmingham and to show up at work by Monday opening. I am very sorry for such short notice, but everything is out of my hand. I’ll leave in the morning and please accept my sincere gratitude for lodging me. ”

Mrs. Walinskyi replied: “ I’m sorry that you have to leave, you have been a good tenant. I think you have been with us for more than a year? This is what I will do; should I able to find a tenant by Monday, I’ll not cash this cheque and tear it up. What do you say? ”

Donovan replied “ Thank you very much Mrs. Walinskyi; super, you have done more than your share; I’ll drop my bedsit keys into your letter box tomorrow morning, if it is alright with you. May I say my sincere thanks for having me as a lodger. ”

Mrs. Walinskyi said;  “ That’s fine Donavan and good luck. ”


CHAPTER TWO :  TASTE FOR REALITY
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That said Donovan Doolittle went up again to his bedsit on the second floor and finished his packing and cleaning. He had a long lie in and got up at nine the next morning. By ten thirty he dropped his bedsit keys into Mrs.Walinskyi letterbox and made his way to Ealing Broadway Station for a tube ride to Euston British Rail Station. At Euston Station, Donovan had a hearty brunch at Mickey’s Cafe. The corner shop was cheap and brunch was under six quids plus the meal was hot. He had bacon, sausages, egg plus bake beans and two toasts accompanied with a mug of freshly brewed hot tea, all very nice, and delicious. Since he had the luxury of time, he bought his second-class ticket and walked slowly to Platform no.4 and waited for the train to Birmingham. Few minutes before departure, the train pulled in. At 1223 hours, the train left on time for his 1 hour 22 minutes ride. He found a cozy and clean warm seat in the eighth carriage on the portside and extended his shut-eyes before his taxing hunt for a small bedsit there. The carriages were comfortable with some commuters only, thus it was a nice ride and the train made good timing and arrived at Birmingham New Street Station at 1345 hours. He then took a quick walk to no.6 Union Passage and checked into Britannia Hotel, as it was the cheapest according to the Internet. The single room was warm and airy but his aim was not to lie in, but seek a bedsit near his work place.

After checking in, Donovan Doolittle bought a few local dailies, including the Birmingham Mail and combed through what flats and bedsits were on offer. He did not want to live in a non-white area for fear of assorted crimes, and at the same time wanted to be close to his office to save on money and traveling time. He found a first floor bedsit at no.10 Montague Road, Edgbaston, about 5/10 minutes from the center and his office. The rent was reasonable, bright, cheerful, modern, warm and draft free with good transportation connections plus safe, as long as the valuables were under lock and key.  The cooking facilities were rather rudimentary, but as cooking was not so high on his wish list, it was not a complaint item. The bedsit over looked East onto the street, thus the view was not too bad either, acceptable one might say. The morning sun when available would be most welcomed though.

Donovan smilingly said: “ That’s fine Mr. Clive, here is my monthly rental cheque  to be returned should there be no damages to your property on my departure, another cheque here for my advance monthly rent and hope it’s all in order with you. If it’s okay with you, I would like to move in tomorrow Sunday morning, as need to show up for work first thing Monday morning. ”

“ You seem to be well acquainted with the terms of rental. From my side, all is in order except to say no pets and no loud music after eleven at night; there are others to be considered and as your Landlord, wishing you a pleasant stay. Here are your keys to the bedsit. ”

He said to himself that he must place a large chunk of his salary to his debt ridden current account with National Westminster Bank, otherwise there’ll be a need to have a chat with the Bank Manager and no end to letters from them. Furthermore, he must change his Bank address to somewhere convenient for him in Birmingham after all, this city will be his home for the time being.

Donovan replied “ Thank you Mr. Clive, I’ll remember that and will keep to the house rules. ”

He took a short bus hop back to his hotel and pleased with himself that he managed to find a bedsit within one day. He walked around his bed and breakfast hotel and found a fish and chips outlet and bought Place & Chips take-away with lots of ketchup plus a large plastic cup of tea, and made his way back for a ‘Telly meal’ in the privacy of his room. This was the cheapest hot meal he could find under the circumstances and he still had two apples he bought at Euston Station that can be desert and supper. He kept a careful tap of his expenses on his mobile phone so that he could claim back from his office. Sunday morning he checked out and made his way to his new bedsit in Edgbaston. Settling in was easy and fast and the room came with a Television set, which he thought was nice. He thence made for a quick dash to the neighborhood Tesco Supermarket and bought the bare necessity cooking wares of a kettle and a small frying pan plus his weekly grocery with the all necessary milk, bread, margarine and sugar. The common bath/shower and toilet was to be shared by four tenants was clean and without smell, and at least the facilities were on the same floor as his bedsit. Convenient he thought. Sunday was spent as usual getting ready for the week ahead with washing his undies and drip dry shirts in his washbasin and drying it by the window. It did not take him long to be broken into and get into the groves of things. A single man got very little nick knacks to be bothered about.

41 Station Road, Dominion Court, was an Edwardian building, similar to others all around and thankful that it was close to Solihull Station. He was there five minutes before nine at the Public Enquiry Office. The two girls at the reception desk were all smiles and one enquired, “ Yes Sir, may I help you? ”

“ Yes, I’m Donovan Doolittle from London office; on transfer to Birmingham and I am report to Mr. McKinney this morning? ”

Smilingly the receptionist replied “ One moment please. ” and she was on the phone for a few seconds. Soon after she revered, “ Ah! Yes. Donovan Doolittle. For today, please wear this Visitor Badge and fill the personnel data on your computer and by this afternoon you should have your Identify Card; which you also can use for securing your entry and exit into this building through those mechanized gates on your right. Presently, please take the second lift on your left and alight at the eighth floor. Once out, ask anybody and they will direct you to Mr. McKinney’s office. Please do not forget to return your Visitor Badge on leaving the premises. ”

Donovan replied, “ Thank you for your help and I shall made it a point to return the Visitor Badge at the end of the day. ”

He tagged his badge in front of his Blazer and took the lift as directed and got off at the eighth floor. Donovan was much surprised that the interior of the building was quite modern with a lot of glass and bright colours. Cheerful to be sure and he walked a few steps as directed he knocked on the door marked Mr. R. McKinney. A strong voice from the inside beckoned him in with the words             “ Come in. ”

He extended his right hand and uttered, “ Good morning, you must be Mr. McKinney. I’m Donovan Doolittle from London office. ” He did not sit down and remained standing even though the seats in front of the table looked inviting.

Mr. McKinney smiled and shook Donovan’s hand and in a jovial voice said              “ Doolittle laddie, sit yourself down. You are punctual, that’s a good start and I like that. I have here a directive from the organization that you will be further gaining work experience here. As such, let me do the introduction to the work we conduct here. This is The Nationalization and Citizenship Section; NCS for short. We do all the checking and verifying to the applicants written requests and authenticate their statements. We do it speedily, intelligently and correctly according to the letter of the law. We have a team of nine individuals who are very learned, intelligent, excellent interviewers and deductors, if there is such a word. We have Kapur from Kenya; Mrs. Majumda, second generation Indian from India, who is also the Section Chief; P. Mohamed, whose parents graced from Pakistan; Mrs. F. Foo, 3rd generation Chinese; Tong Yee Wah, from Hong Kong; Mrs. Freeman and Mr. Tony Wiltshire, whose parents are from Freetown, Jamaica; young George Lee and Vera Fox are from here, Birmingham, and George Best from Belfast, yes I am afraid the name is similar to the great Irish footballer. A little United Nations here I suppose. You Doolittle, complete the ten. You may claim your train fare and hotel charges through Mrs. Majumda and the team will show you the ropes. I very much hope you will be at home and be happy here. Now, off with you laddie and report to Mrs. Majumda. Should there be anything I can be of assistance, do pop into my office. ”

Donovan Doolittle closed the door behind him and walked across to the section in front and asked for Mrs. Majumda. Soon an Indian lady in her fifties, well nourished; approached him and held out her hand and commented “ I’m Mrs. Majumda, Section Head of NCS. May I help you? ”

“ Hello, I’m Donovan Doolittle; the new Executive Trainee from London Office, here in person, at your service Madam. ”

“ I’ll address you as DD, if it’s alright; easier, shorter and simpler don’t you think? Since you have seen Mr. McKinney, you will be aware of what we conduct here. First let me introduce you to our team and hope you will be able to pick up important pointers. Your cubicle is between Vera Fox and Mr. Tony Wiltshire and you will be assisting me in my section. All works will be dished out via your computer by only me, and your personal code is NCS010 to key in. First, fill your personnel data, go to F3 and get it completed; then you will then be issued an Identity Card (IC) in the afternoon by the Personnel Department. Our work consists of interviews and checking data from the main frame situated at Croydon, London. We find the work interesting and rewarding and hope you will find the same. After you keyed in your data, you may make a claim on your traveling and hotel expenses for my verification and I will submit accordingly to Mr. McKinney.  For today, get acquainted with the section and sit beside me; I will talk you through. ”

Donovan Doolittle cubicle overlooks the loos entrance for Gents and Ladies; that’s the bad side. On the good side; the sun will not hurt his eyes. He found the team happy and well united. Vera Fox was not bad looking, however regretfully not his type, red hair with large boobs, even though her body was somewhat inviting. Soon days turned to weeks, and weeks turned to months. His Tuesdays and Thursdays were mostly spent on the first floor interview desks. His main job was to verify the applications and learn how interviews were conducted. Some were sad cases, a few were a welcome freedom, but there were down right fibs in between, trying their luck. All in all, the work was interesting. Soon he was able to identify something illogical just by going through the applicant forms prior checking with the main data bank.

After about six months there, life was more manageable and he was not spending as much as in London. Donovan still has a debit balance on his account but the amount was substantially smaller than in London. His breakfast these days were free tea and biscuits by the courtesy of the office, lunch was always at canteen in the basement being the cheapest for hot meals and dinner were sandwiches with tea or if he felt rich; it was chips take-away with beans and half boiled eggs, a good Telly dinner. His life was more regular and he started to enjoy his colleagues. At the end of November, he was informed to report to Mr. McKinney’s office, which was most unusual.

Donovan Doolittle knocked Mr. McKinney’s door and it seems he was expecting. The voice from inside shrilled “ Come in lad and grab a chair. ”

As he sat down, Mr. McKinney said in his usual jovial voice “ Laddie, I’ve been instructed to inform you that with effect from beginning of next month, you are to report at no.43, next door to Mr.Baxter; you have been here six months? I have no complaints about your work. According to the directive, do keep it hush, hush, won’t you? ”

“ Yes. Thank you Sir, Mr. McKinney. I did over a year in London and have been more than six months here, now where do they want me? ”

“ Well I suppose the organization want you have the full picture. Do continue at no.43 and I do not know anything about Mr. Baxter or about no.43. You shall have to ask him directly when you see him. Nice having you here; good luck and good-bye. ”

So his stint with the Nationalization and Citizenship Section came to a close. He enjoyed his time there and made lots friends. Donovan still did not know his true
designation or position in the Home Office Service, he joined as a Trainee Executive and did not know what he was today.  The pay was still the same and he cannot continue to work for that amount of money; it’s high time they made an increase that he knew for sure.


CHAPTER THREE : JOINING THE FIRM
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Donovan Doolittle took year-end leave and went back to Guildford, Surrey, to be with his retired parents for Christmas and New Year. He has not been back for two years and their line of communication was only by way of the humble telephone as his parents were not too familiar with the use of Internet and the ease of computer. Guilford is an old English Anglo Saxon town about 27 miles South West from the center of London and today, one can say it is at the tip of Outer London, but he has not been home. Near yet so far away he supposed. His parents bought a place as that part of the county was quaint, beautiful and thoroughly English. Besides, the prices were reasonable and in their view, the right region to retire and watch the sun goes down by the green countryside and near and convenient enough to London. Funny thing though, his parents were not purebred Anglo Saxons, but rather shall we say British.

Mr. Frank Doolittle and Vivian De Leon got married at Dubai in 1970 where he was attached to U.A.E. (United Arab Emirates) Army and remained in Dubai till 1975. His father was an Army Major and his mother was a mixture of English/Karen/Chinese-Burmese; working in the Hilton Hotel as an Accountant there. She was a beautiful doll, fair in skin, sharp in looks with a degree from then Rangoon University, thus she was a creature a man in his right mind could not resist. They were later posted to Qatar, where they stationed till 1979 and returned to London the same year and he applied for his resignation of his commission. Mr. Frank Doolittle continued to work as a Civil Servant with the Foreign and Commonwealth Office in King Charles Street, Whitehall, till his retirement. Donovan was conceived in 1980 and was born in 1981, a late bloomer to be sure, and proved to be a studious child, later on, obtaining his Degree in Oxford. Parents were all very proud.

Christmas and New Year being over, he reported on the next Monday morning, as instructed at no.43 Station Road. It was similar to no.41; except the reception front desk was dull and manned by a burly policeman in uniform and unsmiling at that. On approach to the reception, the policeman enquired, “ Yes Sir? ”

“ My name is Donovan Doolittle and I’m to report to Mr. Baxter? ”

The policeman barked back, “ One moment please. ” He viewed his computer screen and telephoned. After a few seconds he resorted “ Take the lift to fifth floor and ask someone to direct you to Mr. Baxter’s office; Clear? ”

Doolittle replied, “ Very clear Officer, thanks, got it! ”

He took the lift and was perplexed by the warmth and modernized furnishings inside. Even though the building looked dull from the outside, the interior was contrary, full of people rushing from one place to another, vibrant and with a sense of purpose. The dress code was rather assorted to say the least. Some were in suits and donning a tie, while others were in casual wears and long hair too. Still, he said to himself that it was not his business. As he got out of the lift, he saw a young lady about to enter and posed a question, “ Excuse me, can you direct me to Mr. Baxter’s office? ”

The girl replied, “ Yes, take the second corridor on your right and walk straight to the end, it’s the second door on your right from the end with the L. Baxter sign on the door. Alright? ”

“ Fine, thanks ” replied Doolittle and walked as directed. Soon he found a door labeled with the sign L Baxter on it. He knocked and a voice bellowed “Come in. ”

As he entered he said “I’m Donovan Doolittle. I’ve been instructed to report to you. ”

The man across the table replied, “ Ah… Yes! I’m Len Baxter;  Sit down and I’ll explain all the hype and answer any questions you may have. I’m sure you find it a bit strange to find a black man in this chair. Yes? ”

Actually he did find it strangely odd to find a black man in a room to himself, but he rebuffed “ No not really, The Home Office is a mini-United Nations is it not? I’ve worked in Croydon and at no.41, here in Birmingham; in the Nationalization and Citizenship Section. I wish to know at what Department I am at and is not my training over yet?  I also noticed that my pay has not increased till date. ”

The black man in the well-pressed grey suit smiled; crossed his hands and replied in a good crisp upper-class English accent “ All very valid questions Doolittle and all will become clear shortly. First, I’m the Head of Advance Radical Warning or ARW in short. Not many know of us and we work closely with the Defense Services and Her Majesty Police Department. We have trained you in Croydon and here in Birmingham and if you agree, another three months in our offices and further three months with the SAS Training Center, to learn self defense, small arms, explosives and communications, etc. etc. and be put to work in a dysfunctional and notorious areas of Birmingham and other parts of Britain.  Your pay will be increased on the completion of training with the benefit of special expenses and your mobile phone bills paid also. We the taxpayers feels you have the right stuff to protect Her Majesty subjects as necessary and thus your reason being here. Your facial features are somewhat neither here nor there and we are in the opinion that you will be able to blend in any atmosphere or crowd. ”

Doolittle shot back, “ You don’t know me well enough and am I to be a spy or your Secret Agent? ”

Baxter shot back “ Don’t fancy yourself: you are not of that caliber, you’ll be surprised how much I know about you, your family and friends plus your likes and dislikes and furthermore I can tell you a thing or two which you don’t know yourself. Neither do not patronize yourself. Sorry, you are not that good, or the right kind of breed and furthermore your rank is too low to even dream of it; I think you may have watched too many movies. We want to train you to be one of our ARW staff, and for your information we have blue, black, yellow, brown, white and red souls who are willing to safeguard Her Majesty subjects against any kind of radical actions here in Britain and abroad. The question here is, are you good enough to join these selfless breed of special talented group of    people? ”

“ What is my pay like and the terms? ” Doolittle resorted while he sat across from the black man.

Baxter slowly smiled and said, “ Your pay after training will be doubled with no overtime payments as such and the hours will be somewhat erratic and at times long depending on the job and may require to work during weekends too. Bonus and ten working days leave will be according to current job conditions and as per established Home Office rulings. Work can be and mostly alone and at times be in a group also. Promotion depends on your performance with no fix time frame. Please also note that from henceforth your pay and anything due to you will be credited to your account at National Westminster Bank. Yes, we know your account number plus all that to be known. ”

Doolittle snarled and psychiatrically said “ You are kind and all hearts; I must  say. ”

Baxter replied, “ I tell you the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Should you be unwilling to join, you may go back to your old job or leave once and for all. No strings attached, it’s your choice and this is a free country you know. We can call it quits, no problem. Are you that special breed of a man? Are we wrong about you? What say you? Do think carefully before you answer. ”

Doolittle was much surprised by this black man statements and questions but took a few minutes reflecting it and replied  “ I’ll give it a try. ”

Baxter smiled and resorted, “ Good. For your guidance, I’ve yet to be proven wrong on my work, thus the reason for sitting where I am. It goes without saying all this is all hush, hush, and not a word to be leaked to anyone. Nothing to be signed here, your word is good enough for us. Should you prove us wrong later, I dare not think of the dire consequences. Now, go report to another black man by the name of Mr. Reville in the hall on your left, near to the lift. ”

Doolittle got up and left the room without saying thanking Baxter and wondered whether he committed to a right decision he has to abide for the rest of his life. He consoled himself by saying that if others can do it, why not him. As he walked through the corridors, the staff seems normal enough and thus he has nothing to be worried about. Once reaching the hall left of the lift, he enquired to a black man working in his cubicle, who looked to be in his fifties in spectacles and a wee bit thin, well dressed in a shirt and tie; “ Excuse me, where can I find Mr.     Reville? ”

“ You are talking to him. You must be Donovan Doolittle. May I call you DD, like in NCS; it’s simpler and you can call me Dave. Your cubicle is at the far end by the wall, but during the training period, you will mostly work with me. Should you be wondering, this whole floor is dedicated to ARW and with dozens of Sections, which you will learn about while you are with me. Dress code wise, good to be properly attired unless in the field. Then it would be what the surrounding dictates. ”

Doolittle commented “ Everybody I talk to seems to know all about me, whereas I do not know a thing about them. ”

Dave Reville replied, “ Don’t worry DD; it’s the learning curve, you’ll soon get used to it. It was the same for me, so there you are. All started at the same beginning, without exceptions. ”

Donovan Doolittle cannot believe his eyes that these men and women were willing to lay down their lives, just to ensure and maintain a British way of life. This he found hard to swallow as he wondered whether he would be able to follow their footsteps. He thought of those people who complains from morning till night, and of those protesters throwing tomatoes and marching at Trafalgar Square. For that laying down your life; worth doing it? He wondered whether he would ever be in that category. He does take his hat off to these fellows acting as though it does not concern them in a bit, and only interested to discharge their duties. He looked around and noticed that there were young and old, men and women, black, brown, yellow and white and doing things as though similar to any nine to five job. His respect for them was undying.

Even though presently he was clocking in normal office hours, this cannot be said of the work he was doing. Everyday work was varied while call for intense concentration was the same. At times, DD felt that he was fully drained at the end of the day, while the rest seems to be smiling and taking it in their strides. Mostly his duty calls for to be assistance to Dave and he was cool and steadfast in his discharge of his work. The chilling part he realized was that all are venerable to be checked upon 24 hours a day; one will be on camera if ventured out of the house. No such thing as immunity, to be sure. Most developed cities will be on similar lines. It scared him.

As time went by, DD became quite close to Dave and he liked the way work was carried out. Everything had a system and accordingly carried out and discharged. Dave was rather methodical with his actions and gave serious thought. Doolittle cannot help but notice that Dave lived alone in a one bedroom flat, in a quieter part of town, cooking for himself when necessary; a bit lonely at his age, he thought.

DD gave a passing remark to Dave “ How’s the family? Are they accepting your lifestyle? ”

Dave replied “ I am married with four children, but separated as the wife cannot understand the work I do. I cannot reveal my real job, so I just said I work for the Home Office, which is not a lie. She wanted to know my Department, office telephone numbers, my colleagues and what I actually do at work. I just stayed mum and she cannot accept that. At times my working hours were erratic and worked weekends too and she wanted to know the nature for that reason, which I rebuffed with a smile. To cut the long story short; she separated from me, taking all the children, citing that she cannot share the same roof, where she does not know what her man does, and worrying for him when he does not come home like other husbands at the end of the day. I now give a visit to her and the children when I can and do support them financially within my means. She is a third generation Jamaican and that’s how life is I suppose. Some colleagues are blessed with understanding wives who are not too inquisitive and that’s fine, but I was not that lucky. Bully for them. That’s one of the downside of this job but I love what I do and don’t want to give it up. ”

DD commented, “ Sorry I asked and that’s none of my business, but it does give me more insight of the job. ”

Days turned into weeks and then into months and DD wondered how time flies when doing something one was interested in. While checking some data on the computer one late afternoon Dave said, “ You’ve been with us three months DD, and now it’s time for you go to Brecon Beacon and Elan Valley in Wales and Euston in London. First stop Brecon Beacon in Wales, take the train on Sunday and present yourself by Monday 0900 hours. All I have to say is enjoy the training and learn all you can, as it may save your life some day. You will be informed of your next training establishment timely. Catch up with you on your return. ”

“ Thank you Dave. I shall remember what all you taught me and I shall make this training memorable. Do I need to see Baxter? ”

Dave replied “ No need DD, just be on your way and have a good trip. ”

Donovan Doolittle replied “ Thank you again Dave and see you soon. ”

Brecon Beacon in Wales was a wayward secluded wind swept place. It was a most unwelcoming training center. On arrival, the Army Sergeant showed him his dormitory; there were seven beds only. However, when DD showed up for breakfast at the canteen, he was surprised to see four ladies; ages varied from around mid twenties to around forties. They introduced themselves but did not state which departments they were from and thus he did the same and no questions asked. The training was separate to SAS (Special Air Services) and to kick it off, self-defense was on top of the menu. Being comrades and training together, the month passed quickly and all were careful not to talk shop and personal matters. One thing was for sure, all there worked for a government department otherwise they would not have been there in the first place. Next month they were shipped to Elan Valley, but the weather was the same there, in short, poor, gloomy and cold. After a month there, all were marched out to Euston, the final part of the training. They were not put up in hotels, but in a dormitory in a not so nice part of town, one for males and a smaller one for females, however all ate together in a make shift canteen. Even though Saturdays and Sundays were rest days; it was mainly taken up by washing and ironing of clothes, even though supplied by the establishment. After the three months were up, no result sheets or positions were given or announced. The only consolation was all were told that they completed the training. Afterwards, all made their way to their respective destinations. DD did not have the chance to telephone his parents nor was he able to see or call his old crowd at Croydon. Doolittle made his way back to Birmingham and reported for duty the next morning. He just realized how tired he was and slept all the way on the train back to Birmingham. 


CHAPTER FOUR : PLOWING THE EARTH
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The reception at no.43 was as gloomy as ever and manned as usual by a single policeman inside the entrance at the reception desk, his presence was further diluted by a black wooden door separating the outside world and the office. No one would have suspected that there was an office at no.43 as there were no signboards either. Coming and going do exit at no.43, however, the facade was faceless, dull as the winter weather.  DD made an unexpected entrance back at the office and exclaimed “ Morning Dave, how are things? ”

Dave Reville looked up from his computer screen cocooned inside his cubicle and said “ Welcome back DD and congratulations. ”

DD was perplexed and questioned, “ What ever for? Did I strike the lottery while I was gone? ”

Dave smilingly said “ For coming first among the men during the training. ”

DD countered “ How about with the girls? Do I need to make a presence to Baxter? ”, without giving much more thought to the training.

Dave replied, “ Overall you came second and yes, it will be a good idea to pay a call on Baxter. ”

As DD knocked on Baxter’s door, a voice from inside said, “ Come in. ”

DD walked in, and Baxter commanded, “ Take a seat Section Executive Donovan Doolittle, and tell me how you enjoyed the training. You have lost a bit of weight, that’s normal and nothing to be worried though. ”

DD replied “ An experience to be sure Sir, Mr. Baxter. ”

Baxter continued, “ Good for you DD and by the way, believe congratulations are in order. You did raise the status of our office here. Your salary will be doubled with effect from today and work wise, you will be well advised by Dave Reville. Good luck DD. ”

Thus their short discussion came to a termination and DD left Baxter’s office and made his way back to his mentor, Dave Reville and resorted “ I’m back. ”

Dave Reville smiled and said, “ DD sit yourself. I think it’s time for a short history lesson. We have been loosing our young Pakistani and black brothers to some international radical groups, such as the Talibans and some Islamic fundamental groups in Afghanistan, Iraq and beyond for a number of years. Regret that one of the breeding grounds is Birmingham; which is also known as Black Midlands and some 80 to 100 misguided young men seems to be pulled in or converted to these movements yearly or to drugs cartels which are not our concern. That’s a misspent of youth and wastage of taxpayers money don’t you think? We would like you to mellow in with the grassroots in their areas and report back to us the names and addresses of these misguided youths willing to travel abroad so that we able take appropriate actions. We understand there will be some expenses, which you can claim back in the usual channel. These are poor areas and money does not come easily, so please remember that and don’t throw money around to create a suspicion.  I believe you should go back and work for Nationalization and Citizenship Section, Home Office, on part-time basis on Mondays and Tuesdays which we will make sure they accept you, plus is a good safe sensible cover also. These people will check and do their homework; please know that these chaps are neither stupid nor dump and very conciseness and smart and thorough too. In short, you go and work for NCS for two days and the rest be set aside for our work. Should you be in any trouble, please contact me at office or on my mobile and Baxter’s mobile, no one else, repeat no one. Do not contact the Police, Defense or any other departments, as they will not know you or ARW in the least. Go to NCS tomorrow morning and see Mr. McKinney and set up shop. Check and recheck again thoroughly before you even think of setting foot in no.43 again. We are fully aware that this exercise will take time. So be it, we can live with that. You are a big boy now, so go to work. Anything unclear or not understood or unable comprehend? ”

DD replied, “ All clear Dave and I hope I’m up to it and worthy of the task. ”

Dave replied, “ Don’t worry DD, we all have to start somewhere, you’ll be alright. Baxter is never wrong. ”

DD went back to his cubicle and sat down to soak it all in. His first task is to go to no.41 the next day and see Mr. McKinney and be accepted officially as a part-timer. He thought of the part-time pay, which would be an additional and that put a slight smile on his face. Back at his bedsit, while having his TV dinner of jam sandwiches and tea, due forgetfulness to purchase ham, cheese, eggs and packet soups, he thought of Baxter’s remark that his facial features were nether here nor there. He tried to recall his pedigree. His grandfather from his father side was the result of an Irish clerical staff and Lebanese student in Belfast, while his grandmother on his mother side was the product of an union between a French wine merchant and a Hong Kong Chinese roulette dealer who met in a Macao casino. His father is thus half Lebanese and mother is not so pure Burmese or French, thus his feature is not totally pure Anglo Saxon that is to be sure. He did key in his personnel data as British in the Race Column. Just to recheck, he viewed his face in the mirror on top of the washbasin; in conclusion, Baxter was not wrong.

The next morning, DD paid a call on Mr. McKinney and set up shop again with Mrs. Majumda, Vera Fox, George Best, Tony Wilshire and rest of the team. It was a happy reunion and his part-time employment thus commenced in all sincerity; since it was Thursday, DD made a slight survey of Castle Vale area. Even though there were lots of local working class whites there, better known as Brummies, most dare not venture out at night after eight thirty for fear of their black brothers might mug them or do something harmful. He did his survey wearing his jeans and an ex-army surplus Parka, not only the attire was correct for those streets, but it was a warm overcoat also with fleece inside that was able to be unzipped for warmer weather.  There was freedom in a way and not attending a nine to five during the weekday was heaven in a way. He did a lot of leg exercise venturing through housing estates and rows upon rows of council houses that reminded him to buy a pair of military boots that would cost cheaper with hard wearing soles. He found that the concentration of Mosques were in Yardley area and in Small Heath district, not too far from his bedsit. He walked through Golden-Hillock Road one afternoon near Small Heath Station and stopped for a bite to eat at a Pakistani eatery, as it was cheap and warm but with a strong aroma of curries. There were chaps having tea and coffee and his eyes gave a gaze but soon concentrated on his hot lunch.

Out of the blue, a young Pakistani with a fluffy beard sat in front of him and enquired “ How’s the food? You are new in this part of town? ”

DD in his put on Geordie accent replied, “ My lunch is fine: I like it hot. Yes, I’m new in this part of town, but I believe I belong here. ”

The Pakistani continued, “ Are you not afraid that you might be mugged or thieved or stripped of your belongings? After all, your type does not belong    here. ”

DD replied “ I am not afraid, Yes I’m of this land, I came here to seek a Mosque to attend since I’m a novice and wishing to be a student of Islam; I’m dismayed by my own religion and seeking salvation. After all, Islam is the largest religion in the world, so there must be something there I believe, which I intend to seek and find for myself.  I am thinking of attending Jami Mosque on Coventry Road and attend the Islamic Center there, thus came to check the congregation timings. ”

It seemed the intruder to his table liked his answer. He smiled and passed his right hand and said, “ Brother, you are among friends and family here. My mates  and I are defenders of the Islam faith and we do not deter any lost sheep seeking the truth. My name is Ramni Karim, and the flock by the other table, are of the same faith and my closest of friends. ”

He shook Ramni Karim’s hand and knew he striked an acquaintance in him and said, “ I’m Donovan Doolittle, friends call me DD. ” He has made his first contact and knew this is just the beginning of a long process to gain trust and their confidence.

Ramni continued his inquisition, “ Where do you live and do you have work? ”

DD answered, “ I live in Erdington Area and a part-time clerical worker at Public Enquiry Office at Dominion Court, Station Road, downtown and attend the petrol pumps late nights near my digs. I aim to roam all Birmingham before I decide to anchor my studies under any Imams or Islamic teacher or Mullahs. ”

Ramni Karim liked DD approach to Islam and soon they became friends and he roamed freely in Small Heath area but he knew that must also seek North Birmingham, Selly Oaks, Northfields, Kings Norton etc. to get the broader picture.
That evening, he found a telephone booth in a train station and made an interim report to Dave Reville, that done, had a long sleep in, tired from the extensive walks he had. His mobile phone does not contain numbers of Baxter, Dave Reville or any of the crew at ARW for fear of being reveled and kept it well glued to his head nor kept any bank statements or cash and debit cards. All incriminating documents and evidence were stored in a Post Office Safe with a numbers combination in New Street Station, without the need for a key.

DD may have gained a new friend, however Ramni Karim did checked him out. He paid a call upon DD, just to confirm he does live there, and had a cup of tea in the bedsit just to look things over. Doolittle was sure that Karim may have someone enter his bedsit while he was out and gave it a once over and made a through check that he was not the law and is what he claimed to be, thus a Koran was kept beside his pillow to throw off the sent. After all, Erdington is in close proximity Small Heath and is not an all white safe area. Donovan Doolittle did roam also around in the well-known Black country of Boroughs of Wahsall, Dudley, Sandwell, Sparkhill and the likes, at times together with Ramni and by himself. DD noticed that his newfound friend Ramni Karim did have acquaintances in those areas and some authority in a few places too.

According to the demographics of Birmingham, it was most worrying to the Home Office that the country’s young black and brown men were leaving in doves for Pakistan to make their way to Afghanistan and Iraq, sometimes even Syria and Lebanon to fight against their home and mother countries, the figures were climbing year by year. This drain was getting so bad the authorities cannot turn a blind eye anymore, while the increase of their clans were estimated to be 13% in 2006, climbing to 48% in the year 2026. Birmingham is a draw for working class Indians, Pakistanis, Africans, Jamaicans, Bangladeshis and the likes. Journeys to Pakistan were varied, direct by plane, through Europe by overland or even taking jobs as sailors on cargo ships to the Port of Karachi and to Peshawar and beyond.

DD continue to participate in the black men community gatherings and activities,
making friends in working class estates, also attending Mosques on Fridays. DD was accepted as a learner of Islam, also trying to gain confidence of their young crowd leaders, his neither here nor there facial features helped. All this while he tried to memorize young radicals and names of recruiters. His weekly telephone report to Dave Reville continued and did nothing to discourage the recruitment  to maintain his cover. After about five months doing community services and helping out in Mosques, he was quite surprised to receive an invitation from his newfound friend.

Ramni Karim one day said “ DD why don’t you join our family on breaking fast to celebrate Eid-Al-Fidr. This will give me a chance to introduce you to my family. ”

DD broadly smiled and resorted “ This is truly an honour and I would love to join in your feast plus getting to know your family. Where do you live? ”

He knew where Ramni lived, but DD acting dumb posed the question all the same.

Ramni declared, “ No.86 Fernley Road, between A34 and Percy Road, in Sparkhill. Come round about eight in the evening. ”

Another milestone for Donovan Doolittle in his quest.



CHAPTER FIVE : IDENTIFYING LOVE
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That evening, Donovan Doolittle had a long bath, combed his hair for once, put on a clean light blue denim long sleeve shirt, well ironed mind you and wore a well washed Levis jeans, with a touch of Old Spice after shave on his face. The walk from his bedsit to Sparkhill was not that far, but the evening summer air was nippy, even without the rain. Fernley Road rows of houses were the same with any working class houses through out the city. On closer inspection, their owners tries to have a different window structures or doors, subject to their affordability. Flowerpots here and there were missing and regretfully mainly bare, maybe the occupants do not want to waste time and energy on unnecessary matters. The uncollected black plastic trash bags outside the houses gates do spoil the abidance of the area, but there you are, the sad facts of the times, where the council efficiency and budget needed no further explanation. Fernley Road rows of houses has bricked low walls and ever present hedge rows were missing, presumed their owners cannot be bothered with the trimming, but it does create a view of a cold and hard concrete jungle, not too kind to the eyes to be sure.

When DD arrived at no.86, he searched for the doorbell, however he could not find it, so he knocked twice on the wooden door painted black with it’s shining number plates screwed on it and expecting the unexpected. After a few tense seconds, the door swung open with a slight squeak and a lady in black Abaya greeted,  “ You must be DD, I’m Jahanara Kerim, Rahim’s mother, welcome to our home. ”

Donovan Doolittle replied “ Yes I’m DD, and thank you for having me. I presume Rahim is in? ”

Jahanara Kerim replied, “ Rahim is upstairs dressing and will join us shortly. Do come into our sitting room and make yourself at home. I’ll introduce to the rest of the family.”

DD noticed that the house was decorated like any Englishman’s castle with petal coloured design wallpapers and the sitting room was bright, warm and inviting. Inside was a Pakistani man in his fifties, graying by the sideburns and a young lady, age about twenty something: the father sitting on the easy chair and his daughter beside, on the carpet watching television. Just then Rahim walked in and did the rest of introductions. “ Dad, this is DD my friend, and she is my younger sister. ”

He shook hands with his friend’s father and from the corner of his eyes, he spied a beautiful princess dressed in European attire, but did not dare to gaze too much or talk to her as he knew not in their culture and not be too appreciative.

Rahim’s dad said with a smile, “ I’m Rahim’s father, Parvez Karim and have been a postman for fourteen years. My wife Jahanara works at Sainsbury on the main road and my daughter works for a travel agency in the city. My son, as you know is a soldier of Islam and I’m very proud that he is so religious, while I am just so, so. I should be doing more, but as I need to make a living for my family, there you are. Do you also work DD? 

DD replied while placing himself on the settee, “ Yes Sir, I work part-time for The Public Enquiry Office on Station Road and also at a Petrol Station late nights near my digs, enough to survive I suppose. Apart from that, I am a novice student of Islam and that’s how I befriended your son Rahim. ”

Just then, Jahanara Karim came in and declared, “ While the food are hot, shall we all celebrate Eid-Al-Fidr and eat? ”

All moved to the dinning room. The dishes on the table were a banquet fit for a king. Chicken masala curry, Mulligatawny soup, a few kinds of pickles, Fried Lady Fingers, Aloo Kemar, Beef Curry and a few more he does even not know. The eating style was buffet and DD has not seen so much food at one sitting. DD made conversation with Rahim and his father, but his eyes cannot help but steal a glance to the young beauty when ever possible. He has not felt like this way before; she surely was exquisite. She may be Pakistani, but her skin was fair, must have taken from her mother: features were sharp, thin and slender, hair was dark brown and not black, legs looked good, boobs were ample and eyes sparkled like diamonds and skin like butter. He could hear her talking with her mother and the voice was soft, however sure and firm at the same time. He now understood why Julius Ceaser and Mark Antony fell for Cleopatra, however she was in a league above the rest in his opinion. Donovan kept his conversation with Mr. Parvez Karim and Rahim only, trying to observe the tradition and staying on the right side of their culture. The food was good and his stomach had no more space for desert or coffee, he was that full that.

About ten thirty that evening, he bid his thanks and gratitude to Mr. and Mrs. Karim, and Rahim saw him to the door. He could not forget the beauty that he just witnessed and for the first time and DD knew he was in truly in love. Doolittle tried his best not to give anything away during the course of the evening, as this could be detrimental to all his endeavors. On the walk back to his bedsit, he had a long discussion with himself. One side was his work and the other was his feeling for the girl and an organizational set up he was trying to dismantle. It was a dilemma with no clear-cut answers to be sure. He saw Rahim the next day at the Mosque and they discussed everything under the sun except topic of his beautiful sister. Much thought was given and DD had to get his priority right, he thought of the 9/11 massacre in New York where 2996 people lost their lives, not to mention U$10 Billion worth of loss to property and transportation and also the 7/7 attacks on the a London Bus plus three Underground lines which left 52 dead and 700 injured. All this has to be stopped, the culprits taken action and the likely followers be educated and steered back into the legal fold and fundamental radicals be ceased at the source, making the community more sustainable to the general environment, and be well blended to the British way of life. DD said to himself that he would complete his task, come what may and his love for Rahim’s sister must take a back seat for the time being. It’s been over six months into his sting operation, and he aims to do a stellar job, after all, this was his first and needs to prove to the organization and most of all to himself.

On Monday, time spent at NCS was rather taxing, so DD took a walk into the shopping center to wind down before home that evening. He headed for the Bullring Shopping Centre between New Street and Moor Street Stations. He had nothing to buy but only to stretch his legs before turning for his digs. Soon he made a left turn into Park Street and walked into Costa Coffee, as the café looked well lighted, inviting and warm. He ordered a plain black coffee and searched for a place to sit. There were quite a few empty tables and seats, but from the corner front of his eye, he spied a nice looking Middle Eastern looking girl sitting alone by the entrance of the Ladies. He glanced again, this time with interest and realized that it was Rahim’s younger sister. She seemed dejected and low and her sad eyes were on her paper cup of coffee in front.

He approached her table and muttered “ You must be Rahim’s sister, fancy seeing you here. May I join you? ”

She looked up, smiled and replied “ Please do. ”

After DD sat down, he noticed that she was in her office clothes, even though it was after office hours, she looked fresh and beautiful, the most beautiful creature he has ever seen in his life. To cheer her up he said, “ It’s not the end of the world. You look rather down, anything I can help with? ”

She commented: “ I just had a very hard day at work. I work for Thompson Travel Agency round the corner. I normally go home straight, but I needed to wind down; it’s been a bad day, thus the reason for being here. ”

He sat himself down stirring his coffee with two lumps of sugar and declared,       “ Same here, my day was pretty hectic also, thus my reason to take a walk before I proceeded back. Last time we met I did not quite catch your name, it will be nice to know whom I am talking to. ”

With her clear crisp reassuring voice she said, “ It’s Sabena. Yours, I believe is DD and you work for The Public Enquiry Office? ”

DD answered, “ Quite right. Friends call me DD for short. It stands for Donovan Doolittle and I work there on Mondays and Tuesdays, part-time employment. The pay is not that much but it does pay my bills and I supplement with being a petrol pump attendant late nights around where I live. Come here often? ”

Sabena replied, “ Not really, normally I go straight home taking the train, it’s only a couple short stations. Changed your religion yet? ”

He smiled and said slowly, “ No, not yet. I’m a novice student of Islam, still undergoing much soul searching. If I may say so, you seemed to be a modern girl compared to your parents and your brother. ”

She replied, “ I’m a second generation Pakistani. After securing my 5 ‘O’s and 2 ‘A’s at school, I did not want to go to University as I feel it’s a waste of time and joined the work force. My views are liberal, you might say outlook of a modern woman and more akin to the British culture than Pakistani’s. However I’m hanging on to my birth religion of Muslim, unlike my brother, who is totally immersed in the religion. ”

DD gasped and said, “ Alleluia, so you are a freethinking woman and I’m sure your family is not too happy with your outlook towards life and religion. ”

Sabena voiced out and cut short the conversation, “ I have articulated enough and should be on my way, otherwise my parents will be worrying, nice bumping into you DD, bye, bye, and good night. ”

DD was enjoying the conversation but had no alternative but to return the compliments, “ Okay, goodnight and nice talking to you. ”

The next day, Tuesday evening, DD waited for Sabena outside Thompson Travel Agency on Park Street. It was drizzling and with a fresh north wind brewing. His Parka was just about warm and dry enough to provide a slight shelter. About six ten she came out of the travel agency and saw him sheltering by the news stand doorway next to the travel agency, commenting “ Strange to see you here, waiting for someone? ”

Doolittle said to himself that the key to her heart ought to be truthfulness from the onset, if he is to stand some chance of winning over Sabena. Thus he muttered tremblingly through his teeth, “ Yes, waiting for you. ”

Sabena took her automatic umbrella out and sheltered from the drizzle and commented, “ What ever for DD? ”

“ Because I like you; want to be with you and felt a feeling I never felt before since I first lay my eyes on Eid-Al-Fidr evening. I just want to be utterly honest with you from the onset and be truthful with my feelings. Please rest assured that this is not a fling or flash in the pan. ”

Sabena replied “ I am honoured and tickled to bits, but you don’t know me nor me about you. ”

DD countered “ True, but that soon will change and I’ve never been wrong about my feelings, especially this, trust me. ”

Sabena shared her umbrella with DD and quickly walked to Moor Street Station. He bought two tickets to Small Heath Station. The platforms were full of people due to the second rush hour of the day. They did not get a seat but as it was only two stations, it was no hassle. At the station she walked straight home and he also made for his bedsit. Doolittle made it a point to fetch her every working day and took a ride together to her station. This went on for a few months and he made it a point to ring Dave weekly and declare to what he knows. One evening, he telephoned Dave from a deserted booth near his bedsit and filed his report.

“ Dave? ” DD enquired into the mouthpiece of the pay phone.

“ Hello? DD? ” Dave countered.

“ Yes it’s me. For your information, the recruitment has been done by a few chaps depending on the area and all travel and leave Britain officially, as this being their passport for return. They all leave Britain by various means on pretext of a holiday, work, visits etc. Mostly they travel in groups of four or five and their end destination of course is Peshawar, Pakistan. ”

He then submitted their respective names; some had English and later on some changed to Muslim names. Depending on the area, Broad Street, Selly Oak, Northfields, Walsall, Dudley, Sandwell, Small Heath, Alum Rock, Sparkhill, Small Heath etc. recruiters were individually different. Most were Pakistani, but some were Bangladeshi, Indian, Jamaicans and even a few English too, the only common factor was they were all aged between eighteen and twenty-three and all men at that. He further suggested that these chaps be interned outside Britain working with Interpol, otherwise every likelihood the recruiters will amend their tactics and tracing their controllers will be unobtainable. The recruiter names included Rahim Karim from Sparkhill.

The round ups in Europe due to his hard work were a success, and as even though the flow of radicals were still on going, but it did became more intermitted, with no reports in the media to blanket the home press.  The monthly catchment may be few, but it was a successful ongoing affair. DD remained on his job not to raise any suspicion and carried on his routine, spending time at the Mosques and the grassroots meeting centers such as local clubs and coffee houses.

To prioritize his actions, one day, he telephoned his parents, on his likelihood of marrying a Pakistani girl and the green light was given, as they themselves are not cent percent Anglo Saxon, thus not that unexpected. He felt good after informing his mum and dad after all, family was family and part one was thus completed.

His weekly telephone calls continued with Dave and he was pleased with the developments. During one of those conversations, DD informed him that, “ If everything is going like clockwork, I like to call it a day and throw in the towel and go back to London and be a boring soul once again. ”

Dave questioned, “ What is wrong with you man? More pay? More benefits? Tell me? ”

DD replied, “ Nothing like that, during the course of my work, I fell in love with a Pakistani girl and I know it’s wrong, but there you are. ”

Dave countered, “ It happens, we can live with that, no need to resign. ”

DD laid everything on the table and said, “ No, you don’t understand; I’ve fallen in love with one of the recruiter’s sister, his name is Rahim Karim. By the way, she is hundred percent totally at a loss what her brother is doing. I have not yet asked for her hand, nor have I secured her parents or brother’s consent. I cannot live with myself getting the wires mixed up and it is best I leave things to someone better than me who has better control. 

Dave pleaded: “ DD, don’t rush into it, as long as you are honest and don’t get your personal life emotionally attached with the work, that’s fine by us. Think about it, man. ”

DD sadly reverted; “ Thank you for your belief in me, however, I don’t have the trust in myself anymore. I now think its high time for a better person to soldier on. 

Dave continued “ You and us have done real effective work and been true servants to Queen and country, a defender to the public at large. The taxpayers have invested a lot in you, so DD don’t throw it all away at least you owe this much. ”

DD continued on his unfinished comment;  “ I’ll be submitting a written report as to my thoughts and my two cents worth why we are facing the drain of our coloured brothers and likely issues to be addressed. Don’t worry I will continue to soldier on till you people can find a right replacement. I do not aim to leave ARW high and dry it is not in my nature, that you can take it to the Bank. ”

That said and done, DD felt relieved and his heavy chest felt more lighter: One thing Donovan cannot stand is to live a life of a lie, now to press on.


CHAPTER SIX : THE END GAME?
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Donovan Doolittle has been seeing Sabena every working day of the week. He would at times meet her for lunch or just a simple walk or window shopping during such periods, nothing too drastic, however takes her back daily by train journey from Moor Street to Small Heath Station. It was not a chore for him and he hoped and long to spend more time with her, forever and a day if possible.  It’s been over six months since he first met her in the coffee house and progressed to holding her hand and stealing a kiss now and then, when given the opportunity. He also deducted that she was twenty-two and never had a boyfriend. She was four years younger than him, but she was strong headed and willing to get what she wanted, he liked that, suppose a modern free wheeling British girl by all means.

While on the train back one day, Sabena posed a question to DD “ We are living a life of a lie. Are our lives to continue just like this, always living in the shadows? ”

One thing has been heavy on Donovan Doolittle mind and he was waiting for the right moment to pop the question. Since Sabena questioned about their lives, he felt this would be the right moment to raise the point. Thus he said “ Sabena, will you marry me and come with me to London and start life afresh? I am willing to take a job from nine to five, so that I can spend more time with you. Sorry for popping the question in such an unromantic setting, but since you commented on life, I thought it might be the right moment. ”

DD could sense that she appreciated his question. She smiled and replied “ DD, you should address this question to my parents and my brother. I may be British through and through, but it is a Pakistani tradition to address such matters to the  parents, as they are in control. ”

“ Yes, you are quite right. I also have a mind to talk this to your parents, and just waiting for the right time to address this issue. For your information, I already secured consent from my family and I am glad to say that they are all for it. That’s the easy part, after all; both my parents are of mixed blood. Furthermore, I do have a small secret fund slashed to be utilized in an emergency, and this fund should see us through till I get a proper job in London. ” 

Both of them alighted at Small Heath Station; it was only a few minutes ride. DD gave a kiss on the lips to Sabena, and made their own way home turning up his coat collar as the evening wind was brewing. When Doolittle reached home, he had his usual dinner of sandwiches and hot cup soup in front of the Television and did not made his way to the community club, but instead wrote a report in long hand to Dave and Baxter to avoid any traces to his laptop and email.

The Text read,

This is my personal report, and my views for your kind perusal.

Our present problem of our coloured brothers leaving for Pakistan and beyond, may stem from following factors:

1. Since kindergarten, the Pakistani, Indian, Bangladeshi and Jamaican children were not warmly encouraged enough to integrate outside school by both parents of white and coloured. This may be due to their own fears and insecure experience they sustained through life. 
2. These have a profound affect on their young minds, which regretfully stuck till adulthood.
3. In their homes too, the coloured families tends to expose their young minds to their own tradition from the old country, where they were made to feel more warm, secure and friendly. This may not be intentionally, however, the adverse affects did rub off on the children. 
4. From then on, the coloured children tend to mingle in the safety and comfort of their own clans, which their parents did not discourage: The push to integrate with the white children were lacking.
5. When they entered secondary schools, they continued to shelter with their own crowds and the extra efforts of the teachers could be improved for them to excel. The only subject they tend to excel was sports, maybe due to only physical efforts were required compared to other subjects.
6. In this regard, the yellow race tends to do much better. Maybe they integrate better and their parents are more aggressive, thus they secure better paying jobs and positions. Some reports said that they even do better then the whites.
7. Without or low educational qualifications, majority of coloured people cocooned back into their shells and found solace in their own kind. Here, they found the common medium, which is the Muslim religion.
8. Maybe they felt disenchanted and not really welcomed by the British, thus the need to rebel and making a statement against their own country.
9. As Islam greeted them with open arms, should the British white majority did the same, there should be no problems and lessen their drain and resentment.
10. Girls tend to be more integrated than boys and mellow into the British system.
11. There will be less wastage, less misuse of taxpayer funds and last but not least, less loss of unnecessary lives. There should be more safety for all.

After about two hours of writing, DD slept with his letter underneath the mattress and the very next morning went to a post office and posted it there directly. He was always extra careful to maintain his cover.  During his weekly telephone report to Dave, he asked his comments on his letter.

“ It’s all very valid arguments DD and much appreciated. The feedback was helpful and I took the liberty of adding a few more points and kicked it up. Changing of guards should be in order in about two months, till then, hold on to your horses. ”

“ Thank you Dave, you always are a help to me. I shall be here until I am    relieved. That’s a promise. ”

Later on, for the first time Donovan Doolittle rang Baxter to his mobile. After much thought, he felt it was only proper to inform the boss. As far as he was aware, it was Baxter who recruited him and should be rightly and correctly decommissioned by the same man. DD made the call from a empty telephone booth inside the Small Hill Station.

Before he could say hello, the other side replied “ Baxter here. ”

DD pressed the button and could hear his coin drop into the machine and spoke into the mouthpiece, “ DD here and I want to…… ”

He was cut short by the man, “ Thank you for calling DD, if you had not called, I was going to leave word with Dave that you should give me a tinkle. First, I read your hand written report and must say it was quite comprehensive. I’ve given much thought on your letter and also made necessary recommendations to higher up and hope to see some amendments in the manner they treat our younger coloured population here. Let’s wait and see in what form it takes. You have done good work and much appreciated for your feedback, which has been priceless. Hang in there and take February off to recuperate and go and see Miss. Vivian Ackerly at the British and Commonwealth Office, Whitehall, London, I believe she is on the sixth floor and my sources tells me there is an opening at Zurich, Switzerland’s British Council for an English Teacher. It’s right up your street and two years there with the lovely breeze from Lake Lucerne should be a nice honeymoon and sojourn. Do tell her that I told you to call upon her. Suppose congratulations are still a bit early. Yes? ”

DD spoke, “ Mr. Baxter, I would like to retire and …. ” 

Again he was cut short, “ That’s still a long way off my good man. Meantime enjoy your Christmas and New Year in Birmingham and the two years in Switzerland will do you a world of good. Your next posting will be in London for sure and will be duly advised in advance. Office hours should be normal with a spot of overtime during some weekends and some late nights also. I know you’ll be happy and do check your Bank Statement in February, I’m sure it will be a wonderful surprise.  Thank you for your call and see you again, when I see you, bye. ”

DD has yet to have a decent two-way conversation with Baxter, it was always him doing the talking and Donovan was on the listening end. He wondered how the man does it and also wondered whether he was educated as a Barrister, view much different from the chaps at the ghettos of Birmingham and London. Baxter’s accent was better than him with an air of upper lip and that posed a question mark in his books. Christmas and New Year were spent with his colleagues from Nationalization and Citizenship Section. Christmas dinner was with Mrs. Majumda’s family, feasting on chicken curry and rice, the meal maybe Eastern, but the atmosphere was truly English. New Year was at Mrs. F.Foo’s house, drinking silly with the team eating noodles and spring rolls, also on the pretext of a pre-Chinese New Year celebrations, actually, any reasons for getting drunk. Her husband and two grown up daughters joined in the festive fun. This was one time when he could let his hair down and have fun without any pretext and fear.

After the festive period, his thoughts were utterly serious again and he posed a question to Sabena, “ I would like to ask for hand in marriage to your parents, would you mind? I think it’s all for the best. ”

Sabena answered, “ What’s got to done, got to be done. At least we would know black and white and plan our next move. ”

“ If that is the case, I intend to come round your place this Sunday afternoon. Will your parents be in? ” DD queried slowly.

“ In all accounts they should. My father rest during weekends and sit in front of the Telly, ” answered Sabena.

In all seriousness DD informed Sabena that, “ I shall not accompany or see you for two weeks after my visit to your house. This is to give you time to think your next move as it will be life changing. I already know their answer, but my duty to talk to them face to face like a proper gentleman. ”

Sabena looked at him in the eye and replied solemnly, “ It’s all for the best DD, good luck. ”

The couple then parted their own ways from Small Heath Station. The weather was bitterly cold accompanied by a sweeping rain, but DD could not feel the weather onslaught with his mind on overdrive. By hook or crook he must see it through view this would be life changing for both of them. The sooner the better and get it over with, he deducted.

Sunday came and to show respect, he donned on a white shirt with a sober tie. He also wore his Blue-Black Blazer and Grey trousers with his army surplus Parka to keep the weather at bay, and made his way to no.86 Fernley Road. This time, the outside scenery nor the weather had any heed on him and the only thought was what he was going to say to Mr. Perves Karim. The outcome was certain and it did not look rosy for them at all. On reaching there around three, he knocked twice on the black wooden door beneath the number 86 sign. It was opened by his friend Rahim in his comfortable Blue tracksuit.

Rahim looked at him perplexly and uttered “ Surprised to see you here. Anything? ”

DD replied in all seriousness “ Yes, I’ve come to talk with your Dad and Mum. May I come in? ”

Rahim commented, “ Then you better do, take your coat off and Dad is in the sitting room. ”

“ Thanks ” DD replied while taking off his Parka and slowly walked into the sitting room. He found Pervas Karim sitting in his easy chair watching Aston Villa playing Chelsea live on television.

As DD walked in, Rahim’s father enquired, “ You want to see me? ”

“ Yes I do Sir, I would like to talk to you. ” replied DD seriously.

Rahim remained standing, while he asked DD to sit down on the settee. Pervas Karim looked at him with a questionable face.

Seated on the setee, DD looked straight in the eyes of Sabena’s father and said slowly but clearly with not a fear in his voice “ Sir, I would like marry your daughter Sabena. I assure you that she will be fully loved, cared for and do all that is necessary as her husband. I shall also work hard, that you can be assured of. I am in the opinion that I should ask for her hand officially and directly to   you in keeping with your Pakistani culture. ”

Pervas Karim listened carefully to his words and replied, “ You have followed our tradition, that is to be sure and I thank you for that. DD, you seemed to be a nice man, but since you are not Muslim, I cannot give my concurrence. Even though we may be British citizens today, we must abide by our Pakistani culture and tradition, and regretfully there are no two ways about it. ”

DD replied, “ Yes, I am a Church of England, a Protestant by birth, however, I am a free thinker, as I can choose what ever religion that I wished. I am not asking Sabena to detach from her faith, above all do you not think love is more important and supersede all? ”

Before Pervas could open his mouth for an answer, Sabena mother in her Black Abaya walked in and replied, “ I agree with my husband. We are Muslims first and no way can we agree marriage to a non-believer of our faith. We cannot depart from our tradition, this is us, we are first and foremost Pakistanis. ”

DD countered, “ I agree with your arguments if we are in Pakistan. Even there, Imran Khan, a former cricketer and Politician once married a Jewish girl, unthinkable yet he did it and the whole country knew about it, what do you say about that? However, this is Britain and all of you are our Country’s nationals today. You all should embrace the British culture and abide by the law of the land. Sabena is over eighteen and her life must also be considered and do you all not feel her happiness is an important issue also? ”

Just then Sabena ran into the room crying and sobbed, “ Papa, Mama, I love him too and would like to marry him. Do you not consider for a fact that he came and asked for my hand like a true gentleman, respecting our tradition? ”

Rahim butt in and said, “ I don’t know whether you are a fool to come here or being a proper gentleman. Whatever, I could make you disappear, cut you into small pieces and scatter your body parts all over the A38, you heard my father and mother, I suggest you leave at once, before I throw you out, you infidel   scum. ”

DD as a last resort informed Sabena’s parents that, “ I have got a job offer at Zurich, Switzerland as an English Teacher and I can vouch that I shall be able to offer her a comfortable life. I say again, I shall abide and do all that is necessary to build a happy home and I shall be thankful for your concurrence to let her way also. ”

As DD got up, he also looked at Sabena squarely in the face and declared, “ I’ve done and said all that I should and could. Please note I shall be waiting for you on 1st February at 1300 hours at New Street Station for our trip to London. I shall wait for you beside the ticket counters. Please join me and I promise you to be a good husband. This I declare in front of your family.”

That said, Donovan Doolittle picked up his Parka and left no.86 Fernley Road. He did not look back and aim to keep his word. He knew all this would shape his life and foreseeable future. He knew that with his qualifications, jobs would be not too difficult, should he not consider to be an English Teacher in Switzerland, tempting thought all the same though.

The next day, Sabena applied for a week off and latter on put up her resignation also, forfeiting her two weeks pay at the Thompson Travel Agency, not that it mattered.

At home, she did her part to convince her father. She told him, “ Papa, DD is a good man and I also love him and want to marry him. I shall be keeping my faith and all I begging you is for your kind concurrence. ”

Her father replied, “ Dear Sabena, my child, I may be a British citizen today, but a Pakistani and Muslim first. If you marry DD, how can I show my face at the Mosque and around our people? I love you dearly my daughter but please also understand my predicament. We all live in our Muslim community and society, I cannot let them turn their backs on me. I shall not discuss about this matter any more. As far as I am concerned, the subject is closed and buried.    

Sabena continued to cry and sob. She declined to eat and spent most of her time in womb of her room, in bed. While the pop singers looked on from her walls in their sparkling and colourful clothes and the guys and dolls stared at her from the CD (Compact Discs) covers on the carpet, all she thought was only about DD. Sabena does not want to hurt her family, at the same time understand DD and wanted to secure her needs also. She knows he loves her and she loves him too, but she did not know how to defuse the impasse situation. That was all. 

While Pervas was on his rounds as a postman and Rahim out of the house, at the end of January afternoon, during a cold, wet and dull day, her mother Jahanara Karim knocked on her daughter’s door and found Sabena sobbing on her bed, outside her blankets. She sat beside her and muttered, “ As far as I can remember, you have been a head strong girl, maybe you got that from me. You also did not agree to wearing a Hijab (headscarf) while at school and forfeited wearing our (Jilbab) traditional clothes. Food wise, you also preferred fish and chips to curries. A very difficult girl I must say on the whole. One thing is for sure, we are British citizens today and you are the only one in our family who embraced the British way of life, it must be my fault letting you have your way. You are a grown woman now and already way passed the age of consent, as such, go and follow your heart, but I pray you keep and maintain your faith. Now come and eat and stop crying, as it pains me dearly too. Go and meet DD tomorrow at New Street Station. I will deal with your father and brother, not to worry, however, just keep it between you and me. ”

On Donovan Doolittle part, he hoped Sabena would join him, there was nothing more he wanted except to share the rest of his life with Sabena. He will take the trip to London, but intend to journey on to Guildford, Surrey, and spend two weeks with his parents. After all, it’s been sometime since he last spent quality time with them, hopefully his wife to be by his side too, and later on, carry on his life with his wife Sabena in bliss, if at all possible. A magistrate marriage at the Town Hall would do justice and acceptable to both families was in this mind.

The impasse continues for Donovan Doolittle and also for Sabena Karim, but life goes on, and as a fighter, soldiering on was his motto. Nothing less would suffice for him.